Ninety percent of life is showing up.

It's been a very full day. Good, but full.

Yesterday I knew exactly what I was going to write about from the moment I woke up. In the past hour and a half my thought about today's post has changed at least three times. Again...a full day.

So a little free form...I will attempt to be brief, but succinct.

Tonight I went to the Shakespeare Forum at a friend's urging. It is something I have heard about for a couple of weeks. Every Tuesday from eight to ten at a studio in Midtown a group of people who love Shakespeare come together to watch each other work and give feedback. It's basically Conservatory. I was given the opportunity to go for the past few weeks and didn't take them. I had made plans to go with a friend, but that feel through last minute.

So much of my life has been going home instead of letting myself have an experience. I am by nature a homebody. Even up until I got there I considered turning around and going home and putting on my pjs and watching television. But because of another friend's encouragement I showed up. Ninety percent of anything is showing up. For me, at least... And what an experience I would have missed out on!

I was filled full by being in a room with theatre artists who love the Bard and theatre and general and understand that it can help us to reveal ourselves. That is why I love theatre...that is why I got into it in the first place. I was someone who didn't know themselves and it helped me figure it out.

For the last year plus I have not known myself. As I said in my first post...I let life beat me down. I turned to my friend on the break and said that it has been so long since I have put myself in this environment. My brain and the idea of critical thinking, and using my director's mind is a muscle. And I have let it atrophy.

I was amazed to see people being courageous and making discoveries and being generous with themselves. I don't know where all of this leads for me; a better place hopefully. And this post is probably my most brief thus far.

But I put myself out there. And I don't need anyone to celebrate me for it. I need to celebrate myself for it.

And next week I certainly intend to go back and I hope you will join me there.