Two posts in less than twelve hours? Say what!
This is one of those posts I have been thinking about posting. And I am laying here in bed...even though I should be showering and eating my oatmeal and taking my vitamins, but sometimes a break in the routine is a good thing.
Change.
I'm not talking about dimes and pennies and nickels.
I'm talking about your life altering.
I used to be very opposed to it. It was kind of a hallmark of me. I'm not an astrology guy really, but I do think the definition of a Taurus does fit me pretty perfectly. Very grounded into the earth; stubborn. I can think of times in my life where I have dug my heals in and refused to change or lost sleep because things were changing or got angry with a significant other who was trying to change me. I'm an awesome human being! Who would want to change this?
But you know what...change can be so empowering. Since 2014 has began and since starting this blog I have brought about a change in my life. Something had to give.
Like I said when this blog started...I was not a happy person. I was not an entirely pleasant person to be around.
The thing I want to be most is generous of spirit. And I used to be, but 2013 hindered that a lot. I was hurt and in turn I hurt people as well.
We could probably all do with a little change in our lives. I don't mean getting your ears pierced or going blond. I mean picking something, anything, even if it is small (but significant) and vowing to be different, because you know it is unhealthy. Or just not the best. Or just to see how strong we are.
This is going to sound arrogant, but I love the person I am becoming. I am more happy on a daily basis then I have been since college!
I encountered a friend from work on the street last Saturday and she told me that I looked well. And that made me even happier.
And I recently had a conversation with someone of significance in my life in the past few months, and while the conversation was not what I had hoped for. He told me that he could see the changes I was making in my life since we met and that the person I am now is very different from the person I was then.
And I AGREE.
Now I did not decide to change for others...because who has time for that? This change is for ME. And that is powerful stuff.
I know my father would say that the change should be for God...but that's all coming. I can feel it.
And as Kathy Bates says in Fried Green Tomatoes:
"Someone helped put a mirror up in front of my face...and I didn't like what I saw one bit. You know what I did. I changed."
I had this thought yesterday and it sounds the most arrogant, but whatever. I even texted it to a friend. I think the next significant other than comes into my life is going to be so lucky, because I am on the way to being my best self right now. And that even furthers my happiness!
The power to change our lives and make our happiness is in our hands. I spent a year thinking I was a victim of circumstance...and I was, because I let myself believe that. FALSE.
I think if we all worked actively in some small way to be happier in our daily lives we would make our world that much better!
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